Wednesday, March 23, 2011

happy anniversary.... :)

3 years.... it feels a lot longer than that (in a good way!). I absolutely love my Quenton! Last year he was working in Weyburn, so we didn't get to celebrate together until later. This year he was working late, so even though we were planning on going out for dinner (thanks Theron and Renee for offering to watch Hazel!), we ended up staying in and watching a movie. We had yummy alfredo noodles with ham, and brownies with ice cream. I had to be careful of the brownies (poor Hazel), but it was a good night. :) Quenton had flowers delivered (my favourites) and it was nice to just spend a relatively quiet evening together. This year has been so wonderful together! A trip to Costa Rica, family get togethers, and most importantly, our little Hazel. Quenton is the best husband I could have asked for. What a support he has been to me, and seeing him as a father has made me love him even more. He's the kind of dad I always wanted for my kids. Hazel is pretty lucky!
We watched "Hereafter" last night. What a good movie! I don't remember seeing any previews for it, but I'm glad we rented it. Funny, for being a movie that questions what happens after we die, it had me thinking a lot about how I want to live my life. Even today, after talking with my friend, I started to think about what was really important. Here are some things I've come up with:

1. You are responsible for you. Everyone is accountable for their own actions and decisions, so don't feel guilty for their mistakes.

2. Do what makes you happy. Life isn't about pleasing others. You need to do what is best for you, and what will bring you closer to the Savior, even if that goes against what others think.

3. Eat cake. or brownies. or whatever you feel like indulging in. Just be smart about it.

4. Love everyone, and make sure your children know it. Your love will help to shape their tomorrows.

5. It's ok to hold your kids often. They might not always want you to.

6. It's ok to take time for yourself. I say that as a woman and as a mother, because I hear that a lot from other mothers.

I don't know a lot, but I know about wasting time worrying about what I can't change. Spring is here, and getting rid of the old doesn't just apply to my storage room anymore. The last 3 years have been amazing with my husband, the last 5 months with Hazel have been some of the happiest in my life, and I look forward to the best that is yet to come. :)

Thursday, March 3, 2011

bumbling idiot....

so I went to a baby shower tonight (loved it!). I was late, as per usual. Man, I can't seem to time or schedule my life very well these days. Anyway, I noticed something tonight. Normally I feel that I can have a fairly coherant conversation, and join in on what's going on pretty easily. However, I think that due to the fact that I stay at home and don't interact with people like I used to, my communication skills are dumb. Seriously, I felt that I had so many things I wanted to talk to friends about, and things that I wanted to share with the new mom (not that important) and I couldn't form my sentences! What I thought in my head wasn't coming out right through the hole in my face. I kind of laughed at myself in the van on the way home because I thought of myself as the mom who couldn't get enough of being around others. (not that that's bad...) I even said that I am a Facebook stalker. Who says that?? :) sigh, one day I'll be normal again. I kind of miss the days of being a young single adult only because I felt like I could talk to anybody and got out of the house all the time. Having said that, I love being married and being a mom.
Anyway, I don't get out too often because it's too cold and to try and schedule things so I have enough time to do what I want before H needs to eat again is sometimes not really worth it. I want to change this, but it might not happen until it warms up outside.
But it was nice to see familiar faces, and a few new ones too. I recognized everyone, and had so many memories come to my mind. It was so nice. Even if I put my foot in my mouth and was nonsensical (is that even a word? ) At least Hazel was a great baby while we were out. :) To those who were there, it was so nice to see you (seriously), and I hope I didn't come across as too crazy. :) the end.