The leaf...

So I decided today that I would try to turn over a new leaf, as some say, and change my life. Perhaps I'm just changing aspects of my life that haven't been that great lately. One of them is my weight. Now, I've never been that comforable talking about it to people other than those that are super close to me, but enough is enough! I'm tired of holding on to this excess (and I do mean excess!) baggage like it's some protective shield against the things of the world. I've been carrying around this issue my whole life, and it's time to let it go. I went with my good friend Karen today to work out, and I'm so excited for the prospect of a new me coming into view! Life since the miscarriage has been extremely tough, especially this last month, and I'm tired of feeling stuck in a rut that I can't get out of, lately because I feel too big to get out of it!
Another thing that is going to change is my job. I'll be done working at the school at the end of next week, and although it's been a good learning experience, I feel like it's time to move on. I have a few different roads that I can go down, so we'll just see where this new leaf takes me.
Quenton and I both feel that this next month will be a good one, probably full of changes, good ones, and I can't wait. Tragedies in life whether big or small can have such an affect on your emotional, physical, and spiritual self. I never really got that until now. I've decided many times to change some things in my life, some successfully, some just good lessons learned. Good thing there's still a lot of leaves on my tree.

these times....

Ever have one of those days, weeks, or months where things just weren't going well? That's where I feel I've been for the last while. It isn't the happiest, most productive place to be, but it seems like I'm stuck in it, almost indefinitly. Now I've heard the old "everyone has bad days" and "this is just a trial you're going through" or "don't worry, things will pick up", but I just can't see it from where I'm standing (or in my case, lying in my bed waiting for the day to be over). I know it's probably just a phase, and things will get better, but sometimes it's hard to see the light when you're buried under the piles of unfortunate circumstances that I know most everyone has to deal with.
Anyway, there's a lot more going on in my head, but I just needed to say that.

the Q

So I have a lot of friends who have written wonderful things about their husbands, and I thought that I'd follow suit. :)
Wow, where to even start about my best friend. I guess that's it. He IS my best friend, my confidante, my love, my rock. He encourages me to do whatever I need to do to be happy. He holds me when I'm sad, laughs at my silly jokes, watches chick-flicks with me when all he wants to do is watch James Bond, he holds my hand whenever we are walking together, and he kisses me whenever he can. I never in a million years thought that I'd find a more caring, lovable, thoughtful, funny, smart, and sensitive man for me. He's perfect. I don't believe in coincidences, or fate, but if I did, I'd say he was my soulmate. I wish everyone could be around when he laughs! He has the best laugh of anyone I've ever met! He is so full of love for me, and I know it from everything he does and everything he is.
I love him. He's definitly my White Knight.
xoxo