the joys of the season....

Well, it's getting closer to Christmas time, and I'm doing my best to be more domestic and attempt to make Christmas cookies. I made a batch of my mom's shortbread cookies, and I think they turned out really well. Now, all I have to do is buy myself a rolling pin and then I can make some sugar cookies. I'm kind of excited for that. It took so long for the snow to come that all of a sudden it feels like the season is passing me by. I still have a few things to buy for presents, but then I just get to enjoy everything. I'm excited that this is our first Christmas as a married couple. A few weeks ago we bought our first Christmas tree and decorated it. It was so nice to start traditions that we'll be able to carry on to our own children.
My sister and her husband were here last weekend. What a blessing that was for me. I didn't find that I was too emotional last week, but when Melanie came, all my emotions came out. It was good. I love my family!
I love my husband too. Wow, has he been the perfect partner for me! So patient and understanding, and he's taken on so much with work and finishing school, and then helping me out at home. I am just so grateful that he loves me the way that he does.
We're pretty excited for our Christmas break. It'll be nice to get away and visit family. I'm sure the time will fly by, but it'll be fun to see everyone. Who knows, maybe I'll bring more cookes to share, that is if they turn out ok. :)

sad times.....

Well, some of you may know that we lost the baby this weekend. It was pretty sad for both of us, but after a couple of days we are feeling ok about things. I had a feeling that things weren't quite normal, but what do I know about normal, never being pregnant before. I would love to just stay at home, avoid people at all cost, but we both know what we have to keep doing every day things to get back into a routine. This isn't going to hold us back from starting a family, though. No way! I know that we'll be blessed some day, and we can't wait. I have a lot of thoughts on what has happened, but need to run, so I'll be back. Thanks to everyone for their love and support. Not to worry. We are undefeated!

xoxo

Big Things, and Little Things

So I just woke up from a 3 hour nap (that seems to be the trend now adays) and thought I'd update our little blog. :) Quenton just had his ring ceremony today (Electrical Engineering) and is officially underemployed. That's ok because he's on the prowl for a job, and we've been so blessed with the things that we've needed so far that I have no doubts that he'll find one. :) I have to say that I am SOOO proud of him! He has been so dedicated and diligent in doing this not only for himself, but for our family, and I am so grateful for that. :)
It's been a busy couple of weeks here for us. First, after going to the doctor for blood tests (she wanted to make sure we weren't pregnant before starting me on medication), we found out on Remembrance Day that I actually AM pregnant (about 6 weeks at that time) and that I needed to see her to start prenatal visits and so on. OH MY GOODNESS!!!! Yup, that was my reaction. I first cried after getting off the phone, just because we were not expecting this at all. We were both so happy! So, of course, we called the family and told them the happy news. We were debating when to tell everyone else, so it was just recently that we actually did. We're so thankful for the well wishes. :) :)
Then, Wednesday came and I noticed that I was bleeding a bit. I called Quenton, my mom, my doctor, my friend (another doctor), and another friend, and then I just waited for Q to come home. We went to see my doctor that morning and things sounded on the "ok" side. She sent me for blood tests that day and again Friday, and I have an ultrasound on Tuesday. It's been 4 days now, and I'm still spotting a bit, but I had my friends' husbands come over to give me a blessing, and we were reassured that everything was going to be ok and that this baby was going to be healthy. I know that everything will be fine, but I'm still a little anxious for our results. Again, we're grateful for all the well wishes and positive thoughts. :)
I have to say, I never really felt a connection with this baby until I thought that I might lose him. Quent and I have had long talks these last few days, and he continues to assure me that things are going to be ok. I know that we've been blessed with this precious little one, and I can't wait to see this pregnancy through to the end to meet him/her. :)

Here we go....

So, I was just reading a friend's blog, and realized that I'm not the only one feeling frustration and feeling being held back. I know that things happen for a reason, and when the Lord intends them to happen, but I guess when I'm trying to do smething right, not having the results makes me feel like I'm missing something.
I think it's interesting that I'm told probably a billion times that for normal couples it can take up to a year to get pregnant. Ok, I get that. Things take time. But for me, it's a little more frustrating. I have polycystic ovarian syndrome which makes the process a little more challenging. We were hoping that the test would have had a little "+" sign this last month, but of course it did not. So, it wasn't the fact that we weren't pregnant that got me stressed, but it was knowing that this month there have been a few indications that my body wasn't giong to cooperate with me. This just made me realize that even though we were hoping that we could maybe avoid the medications and other things that are down the difficult path, I now see that we've already started down that path. So, now we wait for tests to come back and let us know what the next step is. After long talks and prayers, we both feel confident that things will work out for the best in the end, and that no matter what happens, at least until the test shows that little "+" sign, we have so much time to be spending together, enjoying life as a newly married couple, and that we will be blessed someday.
Life really is good, even when it's not going the way I expect it or want it to go. I think that we're finally ready for whatever happens, and that feels good.

can I get more energy, please?

Well, it's Thursday and I have been fighting off exhaustion for the last week and a bit. Work has kept me pretty busy, along with my ASL class, and then there's finding time to be with my husband, any Church activities, and finding time to visit with friends and family. Boy, those who have children and pets and a busier schedule than I must be worn out by noon time! Not that I'm trying to complain; just trying to manage my time better, I guess. :)
Quenton has his grad pictures today. I'm so proud of him! I see him every week going to work, and going to school, and helping out around the house, and still making time for me, and some days I'm just in awe. I feel very blessed and fortunate that I have such a caring and focused husband. :)
Anyway, just wanted to let everyone know that I'm TIRED. Along with probably every other wife/mother/woman that reads this. ;)

genius, a little bit?

So I'm taking an ASL course right now, headed for my certificate and then my interpreter diploma, and I just got my first test back and I'm at the top of my class! I'm so happy! I only say that because I'm normally just an average student, and this really gives me the confidence to keep going and feel that I'm doing a good job. :) I told Quenton that I'm super smart, and he just nodded and said "Yes, you are". :) I'm supposed to say that he's a genius too. :) (It's very true, though. I'm so proud of him!)
I'm trying to make sure that I'm going after my passion, and so far that's how I feel about this course. I'm realizing how important it is to make sure you focus on the things that you love and enjoy doing, and reach for that goal. I really feel that the spirit will guide a person as they seek after this in their life. I know that so far that's what's happened in my life.
:)

Boo!!

So here we are, already into October and getting ready for All Hallow's Eve....... We've already started carving our pumpkins, but realized that they won't last until Halloween, so we'll have to carve some more.... :)
Anyway, Quenton is busy with work and school, while I'm busy with school and work. Not very exciting, but it's life as we know it, and that's ok. I'm working at an elementary school with deaf children and although it's challenging, I love it. :) The kids are really great, and I love the staff I work with.
I just got back from my ASL class and found out that I'm the top of my class, as of right now that is. I feel good about that, because at least I know that this is something that I'm using and that I love. I think that'senough.
Thanksgiving was great. We were down south with Quenton's family and had family pictures and everything. :) Grandpa Pitcher even came to visit before we left, so that was nice. It was different not having grandma with him, but he seems to be doing well.
I really want a dog. Random, I know, but with our not always in sync schedules, I think it would be nice to have a little company.
Anyway, life is good. We're planning on a little trip with some friends Remembrance Day weekend, so that'll be really exciting! Fall has definitly been a time of changing and growing, and now I can't wait for Christmas to come!

Family...

Here's a few pics of our family. Our parents are great and our sibs are awesome! We have nieces and nephews on my side, but none on the White side, so I guess the pressure's on! We try to balance visiting both the Lawrence and White families throughout the year, and so far everything's worked out. We both come from relatively big families, so we hope that our family will turn out to be just as fun, loving and close as our own. :)

Work begins....

So Quenton just left for the beginning of the end of work. Driving a truck, I mean. See, we've been driving a truck all summer, and with this being his last semester of school, the end is in sight. He'll be driving for the same company, just within the city instead of highway driving which is kind of nice, you know, me wanting him home at night. It's kind of weird because for 4 whole months this summer we've never been apart. Now I'm by myself and have to think of things to do to occupy my time. Not that there isn't things for me to do. I have unpacking of bins and boxes from when we moved in back in March to do, so in a way it's like we're fresh newlyweds, moving in, getting settled, starting a regular life. And it's a good life.

The Whites

So I finally caved, thanks to Rachel, and decided to start a blog. :) I suppose I should give a little info on my hubby and I and how it all got started.....

We knew each other 7 years before we actually met. Crazy, eh? We had a mutual friend who introduced us over the internet, so we'd all email each other and I suppose that's how the friendship started. This went on for a couple of months before I moved to Edmonton, and, unfortunately I never kept in contact with him. :( Apparently, though, we were destined to meet again. December 18, 2006 was the day that changed our lives. We met again, through another mutual friend, and although it didn't happen right away, the connection was made. We started dating right after Christmas and have been together ever since. :) We were married March 22, 2008 and are loving every minute of being together. It's the beginning of a wonderful story.